Hello, please do not decide to have a bad day, you can do the opposite. “I did not decide!”, you say,”it just happened.” But you did decide. The ones who cry as babies , know even then, they make a conscious decision to cry or not to cry , weather hungry or hurt. If you think back far enough you will remember your infant manipulations on your parents. Whenever we cry like that we want to be as children with our problems we need help with. If one does find comfort in someone else i wish that those others were more devoted to ethic than the persons i have know, for the ones who have promised comfort in my life have brought little, and even though i spend a long time relying on them, it was really only myself i could ever depend on. Know this , not bitterly, but responsibly.  Life is hard for most of us in one way or another. The worrying makes it harder there is much more comfort and enjoyment in life to be had than worry fear or regret will get you. So remember to write your list of things your grateful for, even the pests that teach you patience. lol. it is all good, we are all good, and it will, all be better soon. 

So here it is, what i asked for, I am ready to accept,
Take the action that i must, to realize and accept the gift,
The objects of our desire, make it real, reachable,
Manifest and accept, this is what… we can do.

are your eyes open ?
yes.
good.
tell me what you see.
i see glorious nature. beauty.mountains and fields. rivers streams oceans and clouds.
should i close my eyes again?
Do you want to close your eyes?
Sometimes i do, sometimes its too beutiful, somtimes im just not ready to be in this world.
but you are.
Yes.
and there it is.
Yes.
there it is.

what is it ??   it is……good. .. i can see that. since i turned the light on.